or a to-do list that will intimidate me until my Anxiety forces me to complete it/ what i should be doing instead of netflix
i should get out of bed
i should get in the shower
i should get out of the shower
stop picking at my nails
get off of the bathroom floor
i should stop tearing my room apart looking for ants
stop thinking about ants
soothe my skin w lotion and not dwell on how much i hate my body
i should text my friend back
stop refreshing instagram
i should gently let my coworker know that no, i cannot come in early to work his shift, bc i can hardly picture dragging myself in for my miniscule shift tonight, let alone getting myself dressed.
i should make some attempt at feeding myself something other than coffee
i should grade those tests
i should make my way to the store to buy basics
(i should realise that there’s no way in hell that’s happening today)
i should do so many things but all i can do is sit in bed, covered in blankets and be overwhelmed. my Anxiety hates putting things off but my Depression is moaning “tomorrow” over and over in a steady monotone stream.
tomorrow it is bc holy shit you guys was today hard. still here. still breathing.